drinking function

i think i am getting what i pay for at columbia.

at orientation today, we had breakfast(muffins, bagels, fruit, oj, coffee) and lunch (sandwich, chips, apple, brownie, drink) and 'dinner'/reception food (appetizers, chips and dips and egg rolls and mini chinese food boxes, and red and white sangria wine). there was a lot of wine. we had the reception with wine on the balcony of the social work building. we drank with one of the deans of social work and stayed until there were only a few left (determined to enjoy the free wine). i also got a tshirt for advanced standing students at columbia. we have another drinking function with our faculty on thursday to celebrate the end of the week.

i met a lot of cool people today. i found some people who are good students/slackers like me, i found some people that are overly stressed out about every single thing that is going on at this university, some people that are very well spoken, some people that wear weird colored shirts, some people that i can see as possible friends, people that talk too much, some very interesting and friendly faculty, and two guys out of 60 advanced standing students. one is gay.

i feel very intimidated by the fact that i am at columbia. i have never read before a class and feel like i have to do that here. i tried to do it, and it just doesnt feel right. i hate that we have reading assignments due the first day and that i feel like i am not smart enough to be a student here. i did really well at texas state because social work classes came very easy to me, but taking my work from my assignments to role playing was hard. i hate talking in class and feel like i need to push myself more than ever.

so many of the students in this program know exactly what their passion is in social work. i know what work i have enjoyed and that i want to work with children. i kind of think the way these people talk make me feel like what i am going to do with my degree is not as good as what they are going to do. but i know that is not true. i may not go work in darfur, but i will work with children who are going through tough times. i may not know exactly what is happening in the news, i know barely anything about social work policy. i feel like i cant explain outloud why i want to be a social worker, but know that it is what i want to do. i have to say why i want to be a social worker in an introduction to my first class tomorrow. it shouldnt be that hard to answer. but it is.

i bought my very own bike.

that is me with my green bike in front of the MET. i am going to name it soon.

first real day of class tomorrow. gotta sleep. peace.

booblay

i am really enjoying michael buble right now.

i am missing all of my music from my old computer, and being able to update my ipod, but i am also finding new music. i also dont know where to download music from. i tried bearshare, but now they charge you after a month. whatev, i will try limewire now. i need music!

the other day i saw a guy carrying a boombox around blaring music, he had his own soundtrack that everyone else could hear. much different than all the people with ipods (which is everyone).

i miss lucy.

worthless

it sucks having to keep your head down on the train when people come through and ask for money. i bought a box of granola bars to take with me, i have only given out one. i also feel that some of the people dont want food, they want money to do what they want with.

i really want a bike.

i rented this one for a day and i loved it. no luck yet on finding a good/cheap one on craigslist.

i slept all day and it makes me hate myself.

i am calling a guy tomorrow to set up an interview at a tennis club on the upper east side.

i like the song 'home', by michael buble. and 'hey there delilah' by plain white ts.

i think im going to go rent a movie.

worthless.

id rather be in stars hollow.

when i was riding the subway with my mom, we saw this shirt and i really want it.

i wish i brought my gilmore girls dvds with me.

i need a job.

i am going to chicago this week.

!!

i miss mexican food. my dog. my family. and friends.

its normal living here now, except i wish i had a job. there was a huge fight on the subway the other day. in the train, while it was going. people started screaming and everyone ran to different subway cars. dangerousness.

i finally started downloading some music. i am enjoying OAR and kelly clarkson.

the end.