POLITICAL SCIENCE SUCKS RIGHT NOW. I FEEL HOPELESS AND LIKE THIS CLASS IS GOING TO KILL ME. with that said, i must continue studying.

Picture yourself in boat on a river
With tangerine trees and marmalde skies
Somebody calls you,
you answer quite slowly,
A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.
Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
Towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
And she’s gone.
Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
-beatles

i do not like stranger's butts touching my butt. i hate the bus sometimes. the seats are big enough for two people to sit on it and have a little space in between. but not when i sit on one i guess! its so annoying and awkward when you are sitting on a bus and the person next to you cant move over an inch and your butts are touching. today i was up against the wall as far as i could get, and i made it obvious, i would move over as far as i could. i just dont get how people dont mind having their butt and thighs touching someone elses. do they just not feel it? ahhhhh.

i accidentally ran three miles tonight. i wasnt even going to work out today. today was going to be my rest day because i ran friday and saturday and i worked out normally on sunday. but i just had the urge to go work out somehow. i also like to watch the astros games while im running. except that they lost tonight, which sucks. and it upsets me that they take out craig biggio at the end of some of the games to put in a better defensive player. thats crap. but i was on the treadmill and realized laguna beach was coming on, so i just ran and watched that and the astros. i dont know how i am going to be able to run outside without a little tiny tv infront of me. i better start running outside.

you cant change anthing
you cant change anyone
cant do nothin about the way i feel
you could lay into me
you wont change anything
wont change nothing about the way i feel
about my little heaven
-pat green

go 'stros? i know i dont love them as much as i used to, but i do know that i LOVE craig biggio. i have loved him since second grade. i used to write the number 7 and draw a heart around it over and over again. must be nice to make 3 million a year, even though that is nothing compared to some of the other players. he is a beautiful man.

must study. i feel so behind. i always turn my assignments in on time, and study hard for my tests. but i dont do all that i could. i have been late to almost every class this week. i am never late to anything. i hate being late, i think its disrespectful. the past few years i have learned the right way to study and how to make good grades, this semester seems different. i feel like i have forgotten everything. i feel stressed out everytime i talk to someone in class and find out how much they have already done. i've flaked out on people this semester because i felt entitled to it. that is stupid. i used to never not do things with people just because i didnt feel like it. i usually just do something and show up on time because someone else wanted me there. i hate that people have said that i have 'flaked' out on them because i am definitely not flaky. i am not a ditz. i just get tired of always being there for people and them not always being there for me.

i took my 'before' pictures last night. i am running a half marathon on jan. 29th with kelly. i feel like if i stick with the training i will be a hard core runner by then. i hope there is a big difference in my before and after pictures. i need to pay the registration fee soon so i will have real motivation not to waste that money. training starts nov. 7th, but i have to do pre-training to work up to running 3 miles easily. i have always wanted to do something like this and im very pumped.

turkeyfest was fun. i love some cuero people and very much dislike the others. all of josh's guy friends from hs i know really well and love them. their girlfriends/wives/fiances are all awesome and all of us have so much fun when we are all together. i like some of the girls from his hs too, but some of them are just rude. i cant handle small town people because i dont identify with them. i didnt have to drink to have fun in hs. i learned to drink beer this weekend though, bc that is all they had. i got to go into the vip area because we had the hookup. i went on the tour bus and everything. i got over some of my cuero problems this weekend and started a few new ones. i would like to not go back to that town if i dont have to. well, i take that back, the town is okay, turkeyfest is not for me.

i want it to be cold everyday.

must shower then hopefully study. ahhh

i like it when people use the word hence.